Following up on a post I read on Sam's blog
about being single, I thought I'd ponder about myself for a bit too. A friend of mine recently pointed out that I've stopped talking about my wedding. And I don't mean the one where my mum has handcuffed me to a woman and is leading me down the altar with a shotgun pinned to my back. I'm talking about my 'dream wedding' where I'm married to the man I love, and all my friends are there to share in my happiness. I used to talk about my wedding day nearly all the time - what food I would have, what I would be wearing during the reception, the guest list, and even what 'our first dance' song would be. And every time, her answer would be the same - "First find the guy, then worry about the wedding
". I used to pretty much ignore that statement - after all, what harm is there in fantasizing about the one perfect day? But then I found the more I thought about it, the more I was desperate to get into a relationship. I kept hoping and praying for a guy to message me online, or meet my gaze in public, but nothing happened. I would flip through my Wedding Planner book and look at the pictures I had cut out of different venues, food, and even clippings of song lyrics. And the more time I spent looking at that book, the more downcast I became. So eventually, I decided to heed my friend's advice and stop thinking about my wedding day, and I haven't opened up my Wedding Planner in quite a while now. Hey, I'm 25 after all, and I've got plenty of single days left in me still.
So in my search for a man, I've jumped onto another gay dating site. Now gaydar was a complete laugh, so I thought that trying another site would help me find some intelligent men. Instead, I found that this site was utterly hilarious. There were so many guys on there with the words 'I'm looking for my soulmate / Mr Right...I hope to find him here!
' Er...I hate to burst your bubble honey, but if you're on a site where half the men have their wangs as their profile picture, chances are Mr Right isn't on here.
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